Poetry and Stuff

I've been extremely busy lately so I haven't had much time to blog, but I would just like to drop this poem off on my blog and pray you are blessed. Written quite a while back, still holds true to me today.

 

A Farewell to Mediocrity

A farewell to yesterday
A gathering of moments now small fragments in my memory
I can't go back to its wallowing depths
There's nothing left there for extraordinary me...
In it existed a life of complacency
A reality seeping with overwhelming, anxious care
Left me rejected, alone, and drowning in an ocean of vicious snares
I can't go back, you see, a bottomless hole it was to me
Living from day to day
Just living was never enough
God heard my soul's plea
To long for more
To desire a life above the horizon
To gasp for a fresh breath of God's intoxicating will
To cry in hunger and want
For a soul to be fed by an all-powerful God
I can't go back, can't you see
To a life that holds no true sacrifice, a life of comfortable mediocrity

Stop and Taste the Honey...

And the men of Israel were distressed that day, for Saul had placed the people under oath, saying, “Cursed is the man who eats any food until evening, before I have taken vengeance on my enemies.” So none of the people tasted food. Now all the people of the land came to a forest; and there was honey on the ground. And when the people had come into the woods, there was the honey, dripping; but no one put his hand to his mouth, for the people feared the oath. But Jonathan had not heard his father charge the people with the oath; therefore he stretched out the end of the rod that was in his hand and dipped it in a honeycomb, and put his hand to his mouth; and his countenance brightened. Then one of the people said, “Your father strictly charged the people with an oath, saying, ‘Cursed is the man who eats food this day.’” And the people were faint. But Jonathan said, “My father has troubled the land. Look now, how my countenance has brightened because I tasted a little of this honey.  How much better if the people had eaten freely today of the spoil of their enemies which they found! For now would there not have been a much greater slaughter among the Philistines?”
                                                                     I Samuel 14:24-30

Our family has an inside joke within our circle, or the "circle of trust" as some call it.  It started with my older sister.  A while back, everytime she would learn some important life lesson, she would come charging in the door declaring, "I have a new self revelation".  She'd go on to tell us that while at the traffic stop or while talking to some random person, she had some ah-hah moment about life.  They were good too--we should treat our bodies like temples, kindness begets kindness, take charge of your destiny, take risks, and the list goes on. My siblings and I loved to tease my sister about these "revelations".   We were grateful to our "wise" one.   ha ha.  Well, I am here to declare that I too have had my own revelation. I know, I know. I'm shocked as well. he he. Anyhow, I would like to share it with you. It goes as follows.

How many of us have engaged in spiritual warfare for a very long time?  We've either been fighting strongly for some promise that God has given us or attempting to do more for the kingdom of God.  Maybe you've been trying to get some new ministry started or working day and night to see God's dream in you fulfilled. Maybe visions of a 100,000 souls in a huge arena receiving the Holy Spirit dances in your mind or starting an orphanage in some foreign land fills your dreams.  Whatever it might be, I'm here to tell you AWESOME, GOOD FOR YOU! KEEP PRESSING ON because you will achieve it if you can believe God for it. But, I have an encouragement for you as well as myself.  Sometimes, we are so busy in spiritual warfare and in pressing toward the mark, that sometimes we forget to stop and tase the joy of God.   In essence, we forget to stop and "smell the roses."   I was recently listening to a preaching by Reverend Jason Sciscoe about renewing the vision in our lives. He talked about how the Israelites under the direction of King Saul went to battle and were given a command by Saul to eat no food until they had the victory.  The men were weary to the core. Saul's son, Jonathan did not hear the command and on his way to the battlefield, saw a honeycomb. He stopped and had his fill of the wonderful treat.  Immediately his countenance was brightened.  When the other soldiers saw this, they scolded him disobeying the king's command.  Jonathan replied, “My father has troubled the land. Look now, how my countenance has brightened because I tasted a little of this honey. How much better if the people had eaten freely today of the spoil of their enemies which they found! For now would there not have been a much greater slaughter among the Philistines?”  Later, Jonathan is condemed to die for his disobedience, but is rescued, ^"But the people said to Saul, 'Shall Jonathan die, who has accomplished this great deliverance in Israel? Certainly not! As the LORD lives, not one hair of his head shall fall to the ground, for he has worked with God this day.' So the people rescued Jonathan, and he did not die."  Jonathan's act was of God.  We see that God delivered the Israelites that day, but an important lesson was learned.  Jonathan demonstrated the importance of stopping to re-energize ourselves and experiencing the sweetness of God in the middle of the battle.

How long has it been since you just lingered in prayer just enjoying the sweet presence of God without asking for anything.  How long has it been since you just enjoyed the simple peace of God and the joy that He offers without focusing so much on the future?  I'm not saying that being engaged in warfare  does not offer some exhilerating purpose and satisfaction, but sometimes, we, just like Saul's men, become so focused on the tasks ahead of us and the promises to be fulfilled that our hearts can sometimes become tired, weary, and even cold.  Life can often become an endless battle in which we no longer experience the joy of our salvation.  The truth is, life in its entirety is a spiritual war, but that doesn't mean that we aren't able to take moments to rest in God's presence and delight in the simplicity of His love. Also keep in mind, the promises of God are already set in heaven and appointed for a certain time.  There's nothing you can do to add and take away from them. When it is time for God to bring those promises, gifts, and callings into your life, He will do it.  How about just enjoying your Christian experience and delighting in God right now?  Take moments just to express your gratitude to God. Take the time to just dance in his presence and laugh with Him.  Linger in his sweet love and in it alone.  Let God renew you with the joy of the Holy Spirit. David once penned the words, "Restore unto me the joy of your salvation" (Psalm 51:12).  Afterall, the Word of God tells us that there is fullness of joy in His presence.  With this mindset, we are positioning ourselves to have the strength within us to receive the promises of God when the time comes.  Sometimes, we are so burned out, we are not where we need to be to receive God's best for us.  So, I leave you with this encouragement, stop and taste the honey of God's presence.  Taste and see that the Lord is good!  Bask in the joy of your salvation! 

Thank you for letting me share this "revelation" with you.  God bless.  :)

A New Year's Resolution

"And he came out, and went, as he was wont, to the mount of Olives; and his disciples also followed him.  And when he was at the place, he said unto them, Pray that ye enter not into temptation. And he was withdrawn from them about a stone's cast, and kneeled down, and prayed, Saying, Father, if thou be willing, remove this cup from me: nevertheless not my will, but thine, be done. And there appeared an angel unto him from heaven, strengthening him. And being in an agony he prayed more earnestly: and his sweat was as it were great drops of blood falling down to the ground." Luke 22:39-44


   As the start of a new year approaches, our goals and resolutions for the new year have been drafted, if not already finalized.  So many have already declared 2012 to be a year of blessing and prosperity as they say goodbye to a year that brought so many trials and storms.  Each year, I hear this positive declaration (and by all means, there is nothing wrong with this), yet year after year, it seems as though the trials have only became stronger as new valleys are experienced.  I am sure this year will have its victories and triumphs, but I am certain that it will also have its testings for we know that victories don't come without a battle first.
   When Jesus was about to go to His death on the cross, he prayed to God to let that cup of pain and agony pass from Him. His flesh did not want to go through what He knew He was about to go through.  He was vulnerable just like you and I.  Yet, Jesus did not stop there. He prayed the most powerful prayer one could pray to God, Nevertheless, not my will, but your will be done.  Many times, we also ask the same thing from God. Lord, let me avoid the trial. Keep me from that heartbreak. Keep me from that situation.  Don't let me experience sadness and weakness.  But our prayer too must evolve and mature into the words of our perfect Savior. Nevertheless not my will, but your will be done Lord.
     This year, there will be storms that we have never experienced before and new valleys to navigate.  We will have moments of frustration mixed up with the blessings. In this new year,  we must determine  in our spirits to push forward no matter the circumstances and follow God's leading. With this said, I make a new declaration, a new resolution within my heart.  Lord, this coming year, no matter what may come my way, through storm or triumph, sadness and joy, strength and weakness, I make my resolve to keep pushing forward and maintain my spirit of worship. Lord, I may not have all my prayers answered this year, but nevertheless, not my will, but your will be done.  I know many of us are tired from the battlefield, but now is not the time to rest or give up. Our ultimate victory is closer than before.So let us not shy away from the storms, but face them head-on.  Let us send a message to the enemy that come what may, we are prepared and equipped to weather the storm. After all, we already know the ending. My prayer is that God bless you and prosper you and that your prayers be answered, but my prayer also is that if this year does not go how you want it to,  that you will bless God anyways and keep pressing toward the mark.  Remember, everything is for a reason and for a season.  Just as Jesus was strengthened and ministered supernaturally to by an angel in the midst of his trial, you too will be gifted with supernatural strength from God.The deeper the valley, the more strength and grace our God will provide you. The fiercer the storm, the sweeter the victory.   May God's grace continue to keep you this year and may His power work more perfectly in you.

April

A Godly Example to My Life...Sister Nona Freeman

Today will be two years that Sister Nona Freeman has departed from this world into her true life with Jesus Christ.  I just wanted to say how much this woman of God's ministry meant to my life.  Did I ever meet her?  No. I didn't have to. Her preachings filled me such faith and helped me through some times of discouragement. It was through her sensitivity to God that I learned the power of blessing others, that God will use anyone, male or female, to see His will accomplished, and that prayer is powerful!  Through this woman's example, I was able to desire something great for my own life. It was through her fire and passion that a desire was born within me to venture out of my comfort zone to see the lost won. With my own calling set before me, I remember that all things are possible and that when God calls you to do something, He will also provide the grace to accomplish it.  Thank you Sister Freeman for being such a godly example to my life. When I was 15 years old, I wrote her a letter telling her how much I admired her and her ministry.  I never thought she would write me back, being that she had such a busy schedule.  A short time later, I received a letter from her with such uplifting words.  She gave me a Psalm to ponder over which happens to be one of my favorites today.  I pray it often and it reminds me that God is always with me and I can never run from His presence.

Psalm 139

"O LORD, you have searched me and you know me. You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.  You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.  Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.  You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.  Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?  If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.  If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,  even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"  even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.  For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,  your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.  How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.  If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!  They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name.  Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against you?  I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.  Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."

What Can I Give to the King?

"And he looked up, and saw the rich men casting their gifts into the treasury.  And he saw also a certain poor widow casting in thither two mites. And he said, Of a truth I say unto you, that this poor widow hath cast in more than they all: For all these have of their abundance cast in unto the offerings of God: but she of her penury hath cast in all the living that she had."  Luke 21:1-4

During the holiday season, it's super easy to get wrapped up in all the materialism and forget the true meaning of this wonderful holiday called Christmas. Don't get me wrong, I love to give and receive gifts, but we can't forget about the birth of the most important person this world will ever know, Jesus Christ. So, it is with this in mind that I pose a very important question- what will we give to the King this Christmas? What could we possibly bring to the King who has everything.  The answer is so simple.  YOU.  He wants you. He wants ALL of you.  Not just a couple of Sundays here and there, a couple of prayers when you need him, some praises when your time permits.  He wants ALL of you.  He wants your mind, body, soul, your time, family, house, cars, job, education, your desires, your will, your thoughts, your commitment, your total surrender, everything about you, even your very own life.  He wants ALL of you.  He will not settle for just a small portion of you.  The widow mentioned in Luke gave everything she had, even though it didn't seem like much to others.  It wasn't the quantity, it was the quality of what she gave to the Lord. She gave all of her heart with that offering. You may feel like you don't have much to bring  to the Lord, but if you bring all that you have, your offering will be pleasing to God.  You may feel like a walking mess, a fragmented man or woman, a broken person, but God still wants all of you.  The woman of Luke gave from her poverty (physical and spiritual), but God still wanted her gift. It was one of the richest gifts one could give- all of what they had. Its a bit easier to give God when you are living in abundance, but it takes a true, sincere, genuine believer to give of themselves when they are facing trials and tribulations.  Christ gave us all of himself. In return, we should not hold back from doing the same. So again, I pose the question, what will you give to the King of Kings this Christmas?

Merry Christmas!

April Abigail

His Righteousness is Yours for the Keeping!

"No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment, you shall condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is from Me,” says the LORD." Isaiah 54:17

As I drove to work this morning, this thought came to me. I pondered on the many times I fail the Lord and fall short of His glory. As the enemy tries to come in like a flood, I see God's hand keeping me and guiding me despite my shortcomings.  I could have done more, I could have prayed more, I should have fasted more, I should have spoken up more....the list of my weaknesses plays before me like a broken record.   Yet, God's grace does not decrease with my errors.

I thought amazingly about how many times God has fought my battles for me and protected me, even when I did not deserve it.  He has not allowed the enemy's weapons to harm me nor condemn me.  I realized just how merciful God truly is to me daily even when I don't quite meet the standard. Then the words hit me hard from the above verse, "Their righteousness is from me." 
    God does fight my battles for me only when I do good, but when I fail Him also.  His blessings fall on me because I'm His daughter and because He has clothed me with His righteousness.  He blesses me because of who He is, not because of who I am.  As the above verse says, we have a heritage of the Lord because He has chosen us and set us apart for His honor.  On our own, we can never do enough to merit His grace and deserve His power. He does it because He can and because He wants to.  Be encouraged my brother and sister.  If you are facing the enemy's weapons in your life and also at a place where you are falling short, reach out to God who is able and willing to fight your battle for you.  The enemy will try to condemn you, but not your Heavenly father.  He is nothing like that. Even in your shortcomings, God's love is still vibrant for you.  Be blessed.

Lions, Tigers, and Bears....Oh My!

"Many bulls have surrounded Me; Strong bulls of Bashan have encircled Me. They gape at Me with their mouths, Like a raging and roaring lion. I am poured out like water, And all My bones are out of joint; My heart is like wax; It has melted within Me. My strength is dried up like a potsherd, And My tongue clings to My jaws; You have brought Me to the dust of death. For dogs have surrounded Me;
The congregation of the wicked has enclosed Me. They pierced My hands and My feet. I can count all My bones. They look and stare at Me. They divide My garments among them, And for My clothing they cast lots. But You, O LORD, do not be far from Me; O My Strength, hasten to help Me! Deliver Me from the sword, My precious life from the power of the dog. Save Me from the lion’s mouth. And from the horns of the wild oxen!"  Psalm 22:12-21

Ever feel attacked from all sides?  Ever feel overwhelmed by the darts of the enemy?  Ever had fear grip you so hard, you almost felt like you wouldn't be able to take the next step? I'll never forget an experience I once had.  I was eighteen years old and I had just given my first Bible study to my fellow youth girls. Following the study, we got into a prayer meeting and God began to deal with our hearts. The Holy Spirit fell and some of some of us girls sat in my living room weeping in the presence of God.  The Bible study ended. We felt refreshed with a sense of purpose.  I lay in bed that night thinking about what God's plans might be for me. As I gazed up into the ceiling, something flew over my head.  I can still remember that it looked like three bats. Suddenly, I realized that these were not bats, but were evil spirits.  I called on the name of Jesus with everything in me. Immediately, those spirits left. I remember crying to my mom that night as she comforted me and prayed with me. She explained that the enemy knew that God had a purpose for me and was angry, thus the spiritual intimidation.  I wish I could say that my faith overpowered my fear, but I am sad to say that for the next two years, the enemy kept me in the bondage of fear. I couldn't sleep peacefully anymore.  My spirit was timid. I couldn't do spiritual warfare anymore. Insomnia took over my nights.  I cried often, not feeling like I could be delivered because I was too fearful to fight against the enemy.  It wasn't until two years later at a late night pentecostal service that a visiting preacher rebuked that fear from my life.  I was finally able to sleep again, but there was still that spirit of intimidation that bothered me in other ways. I still couldn't take authority in the Spirit and make war on the enemy. As I began to get into God's Word more and more in my Christian walk, I began to gain confidence in the Spirit.  I remember when I moved into my apartment at age 25 that I refused to take that fear with me.  I would not live with it any longer. I told God, Only your presence is invited into my home. I gave the enemy a message loud and clear.  I spoke with authority and told him, If you ever come into my place, you will have hell to pay. At that very moment, that spirit of intimidation left me and has not returned since.  The enemy still tries to initimidat me in other ways, but his tactics have no power over me.  Right now, I am currently being attacked in a certain area of my life.  When fear tries to control me, I remember that God already defeated the enemy at the cross. My victory is already secure. 
     When you are called of God, you are at the top of the enemy's hit list.  The enemy knows that if he can scare you, he can paralyze you. If he can paralyze you, he can keep you from doing what God has called you to do.  Jesus knew what it was like to fear. In Psalm 22, in which the death of Jesus is prophesied, it says that Jesus's enemies were coming at Him from all sides. He describes His enemies as furocious bulls, dogs, and lions.  Maybe not quite lions, tigers and bears, but close enough. lol. These animals signified the enemies who desired His destruction. They were ravenous and evil. They wanted to tear Him apart. The Psalm says that Jesus's heart melted within Him which signifies the intense fear that He felt. This fear caused his tongue to cleave to his jaw.  His strength was all dried up. Yet, despite all the fear that gripped Him, He did not allow it to stop Him from making it to the cross.  His desire to fulfill His calling overpowered His fear.
     What fears grip you at this moment? Is the enemy making you fear that God does not love you, that God doesn't care, that God won't meet your need, that you are alone, that you are a failure, that if you pursue God's calling you will fail, that you will have to give up more than God will return to you, or that God will lead you somewhere you don't want to go?  Is the enemy using people to attack you in your job, your business, or your education?  Are you facing a scary disease or sickness? Are you unsure of the future?  Is there a spirit of intimidation that has you literally in bondage?  We will all face fear now or later, but we cannot allow it to paralyze us. We must tell the enemy, You are already defeated and done with. I'm going forward anyhow!  Know that if fear has gripped you, then you are called by God. Why else would the enemy bother you?  The enemy attacks those he fears the most. Don't be afraid. Walk forward. Take that next step with confidence and faith! Don't run from your calling.  Run straight into the arms of God.  Lastly, put on the whole armor of God, for that is how you will fight against the darts of the enemy.  Ephesians 6:11-13 says,

 "Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.  For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places.  Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand....above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. "

My sister or brother, put on that shield of faith.  Trust that God has a wall of protection upon you that no enemy can get through. Trust that God already sees your end and it is victorious. You may not realize it, but fear is an attack on your faith.  The enemy wants to you doubt God's protection and promises from His Word.  Stay strong, God is your defense. Jesus had the victory.  So do you!  Although I sympathize with you that you are facing this attack, the truth is that I am excited for you.   God must have something so incredibly awesome for you that the devil is taking the time to attack you.  So in the name of Jesus, I say, fear Be Gone! Faith be renewed!  God's salvation is coming soon!